from me

How's your summer going?

2010-07-18T16:57:00.000-10:00

Because mine's is pretty awesome.

I've been going out with some friends I haven't seen in a while, staying home and being lazy, and just working.

Working at my new job is definitely better than HCO in a lot of ways. Although I do miss the atmosphere there sometimes. I now have a sales goal that I'm required to meet and I've been trying to meet my sales goal. And two out of the three days, I broke $1000 but I seem to be short just by $100 or so.

Oh, I've also started on my "no soda" diet because I need to be drinking more water haha. Hope I don't break it!

Well yeah, how's your summer going? ♥

2010-07-12T18:24:00.002-10:00

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone or something, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, & it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, & what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

Japan 2010 ☆★

2010-07-04T19:34:00.000-10:00

My little brother

Shibuya, Tokyo, Japan

My nails☆★

Okay

2010-07-02T10:39:00.002-10:00

So I lied again. I didn't manage to write another entry and I left for Tokyo, where I had no internet. But hey, I'm back in the HI again! So here's some pictures♥

Senior Prom♥

Honor Graduate; Magna Cum Laude♥

My new digital Camera☆★

I'll post some pictures of my trip later! Promise :]

MIA much?

2010-06-16T04:28:00.000-10:00

Sorry guys, I've once again been MIA. To be completely honest, I use Tumblr a lot more now. But I missed you blogger.

Quick Update:
- I'm currently in Japan right now, Fukuoka to be exact. I am on a 3 week vacation from HI. And I am loving it. Although I do miss HI. I'll post some pictures later.
- I left Hollister Co. and moved on to Armani Exchange! I haven't started yet since I got hired right before my trip, but I'm quite excited. Stepping up my game in the retail business, hehe.
- It's the summer! Meaning I successfully graduated♥ I'll definitely post some pictures later, lol.
- I am now a MacBook Pro user♥ got one for my graduation gift♥

Well, I'm going to look through my pictures and post again, soon♥

君へ

2010-05-13T23:26:00.003-10:00

ああ、もう馬鹿みたい。結局やっぱり君だけがりさの事をちゃんと思ってくれて、ちゃんと愛してくれたのに・・・何でりさは君に同じことをできなかったんだろう。愛してたんだよ。本当に。でも、何でりさは何でいつも君を傷つけてしまうんだろう。

初めて話したときからすごく仲良くて。離れ離れだったのにお互い好きになって。覚えてる？りさが、「大好きだけど遠距離できるか分からない・・・」って言ったの覚えてる？でもね、その時諦めなかったのはやっぱり君が好きだったから。あれから、ずっと君とは寝る前に電話で話したね。毎晩欠かさず電話したね。君と電話で話さなければ、寝れなくなったんだよ。

12月27日2008年、りさが日本から帰ってきた日、君と初めて会った時、君とやっと恋愛を始めた日。君が帰って来てたったの2週間半しか一緒にいられなかったけど。その2週間半は毎日が楽しかった、幸せだった。覚えてるよ、あの最後のキス。今思えば、切なかったね。あの夜いっぱい泣いたね、いっぱい笑ったね。何度思ったか、「あの夜に戻りたい・・・」って。

君と最後に一緒にいたのは今日でもう1年と4ヶ月の事。君と5000マイルも離れてて、すごく悲しかった。覚えてる？スカイプで二人とも泣きながら馬鹿な顔して、ビデオチャットしたね。毎朝「おはよう」って携帯にメールして、授業中もメールして。毎晩欠かさず電話。ほとんど、毎日ビデオチャットして。それでも、やっぱり一緒にいないからって何度泣いたか。でも、毎日欠かさず言ってた、「愛してるよ」がりさ達を支えてたね。

「愛してるけど、君はそばにいない」、そんな事を思ってたら他の子に惚れちゃった。どんなに悪い事をしたか、そう思って君に泣きながら電話したね。覚えてる？あの時は本当にゴメンね。りさは馬鹿だったよ。あの子のせいで、みんなに内緒で恋愛から休憩したね。馬鹿みたい。

あれから、全部が変になったね。小さな事で言い合いして、そんな嫌な日々が続いたね。6月22日2009年、りさは君と別れる事決めた。りさから別れたのに、すごく泣いてたね。何でって、やっぱりまだ好きだったから？だから6月27日2009年、また君と付き合い始めた。でも、またすぐにうまくいかなくって、別れたね。

あれから、君の大親友と遊び始めたね。ある夜、一緒にパーティーに行って・・・その後、「彼となら、うまくできる」そう思って、好きになり始めたらやっぱり彼ともだめ。君はその時点で、「おまえは僕の人生にはもう存在しない」ってりさに言った。それで、久しぶりにまた一人ぼっち。

君にある秋の夜に電話した。君は電話に出てくれた。あの時、君と4時間以上話したね。いっぱい泣いて、いろいろ話して。あの日からメールの返事がなくても、毎朝「おはよう」、毎晩「おやすみ」。たまには長いメールも送ったね。それから、ちょっとづつ君と話したけど。やっぱり君にはりさと話すことは無理だった・・・

君の事はずっと思ってた。起きた瞬間、「君は今何やってるんだろう」。寝る前は、「電話したいよ・・・」。良い想いでも、悪い想いでも。全部忘れられなかった。君の事思ったから、急に泣いたり、笑ったり。君はりさにとってこの世で一番大切な人だった。

あれから、ずっと待ってた。君からのメールか電話を。16週間たち、勇気を出してりさから電話したね。最初は電話に出なかったね。「やっぱり忘れられたのか・・・」って思ってたら、君から電話。君はりさの番号を忘れてたね。でも、その日もずっとりさの話を聞いてくれた。その時に、りさに「もうどこにも行かない、最低でも君の友達としてずっとそばにいてあげる」って言ってくれた。

毎日欠かさず話したね。君は「好きだよ」っていつも言ってた。でも、本気で言ってるとは思わなかった。お互い、また惚れ直して、2月18日2010 年、君とまた恋愛を始めた日。毎日が幸せだった。言い合いもなかったし、ただ君が帰ってくることを楽しみにしていたね。でも、あの人にりさは出会って、間違いを起こした。5月9日2010年、君を失うことになった。

あの日から、りさは自分じゃなくなった。寝るのもただベッドに横になるだけ。食べるのも不必要になった。学校から帰ってきたら、すぐにベッドにもぐった。君の事を考えることしかできなかった。でも思ったんだ、自分を変えなければ何も変わらないって。だから、今は普通に生きていけるようになったの。りさは自分のためにも、君のためにも変わりたいの。君に自分が変わったって見せたいの。そしたら、わがままかもしれないけど、できればまたりさの人生に戻ってきてほしいの。

でも、本当にゴメンね。心のそこから、本当にゴメン。君はりさの事を誰より一番に思ってくれて、誰よりも愛してくれた。君はりさの本当の初恋だよ。永遠に君はりさの心に残るから。だから、お願いだからりさの事を忘れないで。だって・・・りさは君の事忘れないし、忘れられないから。

最後に・・・さようなら、またね♥

Untitled

2010-05-12T21:21:00.001-10:00

I've once again realized a lot of different things that I should have realized the first time around. And all I can say is, from the bottom of my heart I am truly sorry. I've never felt so broken and defeated and dead. But I'm sure that you feel the same too, along with anger. I can't believe that out of all the people in this world that I know, I put you through this again. All I can do is not to ask for your forgiveness, but to change. Change for myself, change for the people I've hurt including you. And I hope I can prove myself and prove you, that I can and have changed in the future.

So until then, ~~goodbye~~.

In the end,

2010-04-27T15:40:00.001-10:00

you walked away, I didn't.

pink♥

2010-04-24T20:13:00.000-10:00

Prom is in two weeks. I got my dress, which I need to get altered. And I got my nails done this morning♥ I love them very much, got it done by Salon Cherie♥ They were really great, very clean. I'm pretty excited for prom besides the difficulty of getting everything perfect such as finding a table, which I still need to do. Ugh.

It's now time for dinner, I'm starving haha. I hope everyone's weekend is going great♥

10 Ways to Love

2010-04-19T18:02:00.002-10:00

1. Listen without interrupting. (Proverbs 18)
2. Speak without accusing. (James 1:19)
3. Give without sparing. (Proverbs 21:26)
4. Pray without ceasing. (Colossians 1:9)
5. Answer without arguing. (Proverbs 17:1)
6. Share without pretending. (Ephesians 4:15)
7. Enjoy without complaint. (Philippians 2:14)
8. Trust without wavering. (Corinthians 13:7)
9. Forgive without punishing. (Colossians 3:13)
10. Promise without forgetting. (Proverbs 13:12)

yeah, such a tragedy

2010-04-19T15:15:00.000-10:00

You stole a kiss and stole my heart
made me a ~~fool~~ right from the start
It wouldn’t have been so bad except
this little plan, ~~it fell apart~~

If I were you
I’d dare not speak
I’d run like hell
In hopes of seein’ tomorrow

It’s such a travesty
the way you say our love should be
yeah, such a tragedy
think you can just ~~break my heart and leave me~~
well you better run
Oh, man on the run
playin’ for fun
wind me up
leave me undone

You pushed my button.

2010-04-17T14:57:00.000-10:00

So this past Wednesday, something happened that really pushed my button after feeling not that great for more than a week. After school, I had plans with my mother to go prom dress shopping. Not checking the surroundings of my car, I hop in and back out to head home. Apparently, someone had put a metal trashcan behind my car and the height was the same as the height of my trunk so I didn't see it. I ended up backing into the trashcan, putting scratches on my paint and bottom rubber part. Out of all the days that I've parked at school and after parking in that one particular stall, I get a trashcan behind my car. I can handle all the rumors, the laughs, and teases that I get from my peers. But when something happens to things that I love, people are going too far. After feeling not that great for the past week and a half, I couldn't help but to let all the emotions out to my counselor. And it felt great. And the next day I didn't feel like going to school and with my understanding parents, I just stayed home and went out with my mother. After this whole issue, I'm really dreading the remaining school days. Honestly, one more month till it's all over. I really cannot wait.

Sometimes

2010-04-12T18:24:00.000-10:00

I wonder if it's even worth trying to be strong,
trying not to be bothered by rude comments and laughs,
trying not to care about what people may think of you,
trying not to care about feeling alone in a class full of people I know,
trying not to think about what happened with you and how it is now,
trying not to cry when you feel like crying everyday.

Tell me, is it worth it all?

Hello April

2010-04-04T13:27:00.000-10:00

A month till my AP exams, a month and 4 days till senior prom, a month and 17 days till graduation, a month and 19 days till I'm 18, and a month and 20 days till I start my summer classes at my college.

I slacked off so much last term, it's quite embarrassing when you receive your first D on your report card and the lowest grade point average attained in your life. But hey, I'm still an honor graduate so I shook that off quite easily. To try and achieve the best grades I can get for my last term of high school, I've been going to all my classes and doing all my homework. In a month, I'll be taking my two AP exams. So all the practice exams for calculus are ridiculous and it's disappointing to get low grades on them especially since I love math. But that's okay, I know I'll get a 5 on my exam. As for chemistry, we're finally close to being finished with learning our material. Although I'm not confident with the exam for this subject, I'll do much better in college chemistry after taking this class. I really think I am a nerd because I think about school all the time, both good and bad thoughts. It's kind of weird.... But that's okay. I love being a nerd/dork ♥

I did not work all weekend this week. I'm quite happy with that and it's probably because I worked 22 hours last week. Haha, I'm amazed that I did it especially on a school week! But last night was another fun night out with my friends. Dinner at Cheesecake Factory♥

How are you spending your weekend?♥

Last night

2010-03-21T23:12:00.000-10:00

Of spring break and of course I'm still up finishing up my homework. This spring break was a very relaxing one and somewhat fun. But I'm definitely not looking forward to going back to school. Especially because I'll probably get busier with studying for my AP exams and such. Plus, prom and graduation and leadership. Sigh. I honestly can't wait till I'm out of high school. Well, I'd like to sleep before 12AM of Monday. So, I'll continue with my homework now.

Hope everyone enjoyed/is enjoying their break. ♥

Can I please

2010-03-21T22:56:00.000-10:00

Just get my diploma already?

I'm really not looking forward to going to high school anymore.

I hate high school.

Cupcake Lover♥

2010-03-16T12:03:00.000-10:00

Being a cupcake lover that I am, I absolutely LOVE this tumblr site.
Click Click Click ♥

Spring Break

2010-03-15T14:00:00.001-10:00

Started last Friday and I'm so happy that I don't have school for a week. And I haven't updated for more than a week. I missed blogging a lot. There was just a lot of things to do for school and thank god I finished it all. And I passed my senior project, so I'll be graduating with a BOE (Board of Education) Recognition Diploma or in other words, an Honor Graduate. ♥ I'm so relieved, haha.

So for spring break, I was assigned 200 AP Calculus questions and a chapter outline for AP Chemistry along with the first set of problems for that chapter. So in a week, 210 problems and an outline. Sigh. But that's okay, I'll manage to finish it while working and hanging out with some coworkers.

How's your spring going? ♥

BBQ

2010-03-15T12:42:00.000-10:00

Two Thursday ago, I had a BBQ at my friend's house. After work, me and my friend grabbed food from Sam's Club and drove out to our friend's house. The menu for the night was: Potato Salad, Hamburgers, Hotdogs, Cooked Shrimp, Ahi Poke, Chips with Salsa. We cooked and ate, played Wii, and had fun♥

(Mashing potatoes)

(Grill'n)

(HCo 341♥)

(The group for the night♥)

What do you guys normally have at your BBQs? ♥

Will you please

2010-03-15T11:11:00.000-10:00

Support Sui? ♥ She's an inspiring photographer and writer. I really adore her work.

Find her on Facebook, Twitter, Flickr, her blog, and her other sites. :]

Yes, I'm in class now

2010-03-03T10:32:00.000-10:00

But I just wanted to say that...

I GOT A "B" ON MY AP CALCULUS FINAL. :D
So I'll be getting a "B" for this term!<3
I'm very happy right now.

Support

2010-03-02T15:12:00.001-10:00

Sui, she has amazing photography skills. :]
Click Click Click

Oh my,

2010-03-01T20:38:00.000-10:00

It's already March guys. I didn't even notice till a few hours after I made my post today. 81 more days till Graduation. I'm so excited♥ I know what college I'm going to, what I'm going to major in, and what I'm going to become career wise. I honestly can't wait what college has to offer me and what's waiting for me after I'm free from all of the high school stuff.

Hollister long sleeve♥ Haha, I haven't done the peace sign like a FOB in a while.

Barely

2010-03-01T13:32:00.000-10:00

Destroyed that AP Calculus final this morning. And because I didn't finish making up my AP Chemistry homework, I went to the library to finish it up and go back to class. But it took me two hours, an hour more than I thought, to finish it. Resulting in skipping AP Chemistry class AGAIN. Sigh. So I just came home, ate chips and salsa and decided to blog before going back to working on my to-do list for all my school work.

After presenting my senior project tomorrow morning, I'll finally be free from doing ridiculous extra work. I'm so excited to get that over with. But I can't start partying till I catch up on AP Chemistry because I have to make two tests and probably a bunch of lab write ups. And even after that's done, I still have my photography projects to finish by this week Thursday. Thank god for my ENG100 teacher allowing one extension without penalty. If it wasn't for that extension, my film review on "SiCKO", by Michael Moore, would've been due tomorrow as well. And since I got my AP Calculus over with, I don't have much to worry about for that class now.

Thinking about all the work I have yet to do, I wish it was the weekend.... But it's only Monday.
Hope everyone's hanging in there better than me!♥

AP Calculus

2010-02-28T22:04:00.001-10:00

Final is tomorrow. I need at least a B to keep my B for term 3 grades.

Wish me luck♥

Changed

2010-02-28T18:46:00.002-10:00

My layout since I thought my layout looked dark-ish. I don't know. Haha. I'll be tweaking on it more, I think. Add color to it♥

Dodged

2010-02-27T15:17:00.002-10:00

So we luckily dodged the tsunami. And it wasn't a big one like they expected it to be. I was worried about my car, my baby♥ So thank god the tsunami didn't happen. But thank you, Tsunami Warning. For cancelling work so I earn less for my next paycheck and keeping me from trying on all the new things after work. I was looking forward to work since it's always fun. But oh well, more time to do some school work. Haha.

So how's your weekend going? ♥

Tsunami

2010-02-27T10:05:00.002-10:00

Tsunami warning in Hawaii. :[
It's expected to hit in an hour...and I'm blogging. Haha.

Everyone please stay safe♥

Amen

2010-02-24T11:24:00.001-10:00

Read this post. I love her words and her photography♥

Hello World

2010-02-23T11:04:00.002-10:00

I have been MIA (missing in action) for a while now...to a lot of people including you. And I do apologize for that. But I've been a bit passive and anti-social (kind of). I once again started playing my favorite Asian computer game, MapleStory. And I seem to be lacking in motivation, as well as inspiration. I've literally skipped a week of school, aside from attending my AP Calculus class and my ENG100 class. I guess you can diagnose me with senioritis, although I think not. The term ends in three weeks, including this week. Motivate me. Inspire me.

Simple and Short

2010-02-11T09:51:00.002-10:00

I'll be keeping this post simple and short. But thankyuuuu for the comments guys!♥ Everything's back to normal now. And I've been busy with volunteering, work, and school work. I've once again started skipping some of my classes.... Well at least it's the weekend, catch up on all my work and start the new week with no absences, haha.

Well, I have an English assignment due in about 2 hours so hopefully I'll post later today.

Hope everyone's having a wonderful week♥

The Truth

2010-02-08T16:25:00.002-10:00

Hurts sometimes. And it definitely hurts right now.

You were the most important friend I had.

Break

2010-02-07T20:44:00.003-10:00

So I took a little break from blogging this weekend and I definitely missed writing. This weekend was another three day weekend and thinking back to it, I honestly didn't do much but it was a very busy, tiring weekend. Couldn't relax much as I would've liked to.

This past Friday and Saturday, there was a school carnival going on where literally everyone goes to. The place I volunteer at went this Friday and I went along with them. Since we went in the midday, it was quite hot. And I made the mistake of wearing my skinny jeans since it's a tradition that it rains when the carnival is held. This year would probably be the first year that it didn't rain, which surprised everyone. But after four hours of walking around in the hot sun, I had to head to work for another four plus hours of standing around, helping customers. And since it was a closing shift, getting out on time didn't happen.

On Saturday, I once again headed out to work in the morning. And since I got paid on Friday, I got myself a tank top and white denim shorts. Yay for discounts♥ haha. After getting home, I had to head out to a BBQ where I spent majority of my time talking on the phone. I mean the food was alright, I just felt out of place. So boo for that.

And today, I had an opening shift. It being Superbowl Sunday, it was quite slow for a Sunday. I must add, both Friday and Saturday as well was quite slow. Afterward, I got a haircut. Well, a trim actually since I like my long hair♥ I got it thinned out and my bangs cut short again. For dinner tonight, I was reunited with pho and Vietnamese coffee♥ I love Vietnamese coffee.

Tomorrow, it's Monday again and I still have homework to finish. Oh Monday, why must you come so soon?

I'm Starting

2010-02-03T21:01:00.002-10:00

To enjoy being at home. Ever since last weekend, if I don't have school, work, or volunteering, I'd rather be at home then out and about, spending money on food and coming home late. But don't get me wrong, it's not like I wouldn't go out if someone were to ask me. Like last weekend, I went out once on Saturday night to my friend's house.

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I really want to make use of my room. I'm always downstairs, using my dining table as my desk. It would help if I had the room to myself. But unfortunately, I share a from with my sister who is six years younger than me. So, limited space plus lack of organization has led to spending my days in the living room and only using my room for a place to sleep in. Oh, and a new bed would also be nice. I currently sleep on a bed that you can fold into a mini sofa thing. Totally uncomfortable and it doesn't help with the slight back problems that I have.

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As graduation approaches, the more I wish I already graduated. The more I think about things, the more I blame it on having to work around my high school schedule. I feel that high school's keeping me from being a little more free. The reason why I'm slightly negative towards high school is because my four years of high school weren't exactly the best years of my life, or at least for now it isn't. There were just too many ups and downs that it left me to the point where I'm ready to move on.

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Well today's entry was rather random. Do you have any random thoughts lingering in your mind?♥

Waking up

2010-02-02T21:08:00.003-10:00

To this would be nice♥ I've always wanted someone to make me breakfast in bed, haha. Maybe one day. But for now, getting "Good Morning" text messages will do. They seriously make my day. I got one this morning, which is out of the blue since I never get them on weekday mornings.

So today, for the third time in a row, I skipped my photography class to work on some scholarships. But really, I just didn't want to walk across campus in the rain, haha. Yes, it rained today. Poured, would be a better would actually. On my way home, I had the wipers to max and I could still barely see where I'm driving. By late afternoon, the sky cleared up. Most of the times, I don't really like rain because it ruins my hair. I have uneven, wavy hair so when I straighten it and it gets wet, it becomes uneven and wavy again. But I do enjoy rain, when I'm at home in my room, just relaxing♥ Ohohoh! I almost forgot. It snowed in NY today, haha. I love snow♥

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I'd get a star tattoo on my wrist like this, haha. I really like stars more than hearts. But I still like hearts too. But if I had to choose one, it'd be stars. That's why I had stars on my nails this past winter, haha. I know, random. But I stumbled upon this on tumblr.

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So how was your second day of February? Hopefully not as rainy as mine♥

It's been

2010-02-01T18:56:00.005-10:00

Thirty two days since 2010 started. I honestly can't believe it's already February. That means three more months till prom, graduation, and my 18th birthday♥ May is going to be a busy month.

So I said I'd go back for that dress in my blog entry yesterday, and I did! Today, after leaving school before I went to my last class, haha. It's cute...right?♥ I decided to braid my hair to see what it'd look like. I think it goes well together. But I also found out that I'm horrible with braiding my own hair. And I also decided to wear this dress for my senior luau.

Hollister Dress

Today, since I need more hours, I went volunteering. We went on a scavenger hunt, we needed to find 22 things, but it ended all too quickly. So, we played games which was really fun. I'm thinking about continuing even after I make my required hours. You don't do too much work and you have fun, I think it's worth it.

Last night, I watched the movie, 9, and I thought it was really cute. A family type movie with good morals, so if you have a younger sibling, you should watch it with them. And tonight, since my mother didn't rent any new dvds, I'm movie-less. Poo. I'm starting to like watching dvds. Plus, I don't have to pay $10 to watch it in a cold theater with strangers, haha.

Hopefully everyone's Monday was as fun as mine♥

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Spring

2010-01-31T15:12:00.005-10:00

It seems like spring time is approaching♥ Especially because of all the new clothes on the floor at work. Everything is so colorful and cute. Like this dress I saw yesterday when I walked into work. I tried it on after work and decided that it's a must that I'd come back for it to purchase. The colors in this picture make it seem like it's all soft but it's actually more bright and even more cute. It's cute...right?♥

This weekend, I've done nothing in particular but stay home, relax, and eat homemade food. I pretty much had Korean food three days in a row, which totally isn't a bad thing haha. Day 1: fish jun and kimchee. Day 2: deep fried mandoo, japchae, and kimchee. Day 3: Samgyetang and kimchee. Kimchee is all most always in our Japanese household refrigerator. Sometimes, I'd come home from school and make myself a kimchee bowl for lunch. Yeah, I secretly wish my mother was like a fourth Korean so I was an eighth Korean, haha. She seems like she can be. I mean, she cooks Korean dishes so well♥

For day 2 though, I once again went over to my friend's house with my other friends to cook. So I guess I lied about staying home, haha. Like last time, we managed to make a mess and take two hours to make the food. But it was worth it all because it was the best deep fried mandoos I've ever had.

On a different note, I've had two nightmares in a row. Scary enough that I would wake up in the middle of the night. And what was weird was that they both had to do with Japanese horror films or stories, which I'm sure you know that they're all creepy and really scary. But thankfully, I didn't have a nightmare last night. So hopefully it stays that way. I don't need to develop bad sleeping habits again.

So tomorrow's Monday again, what have you done this weekend?

I don't

2010-01-27T21:35:00.001-10:00

want to call you my 오빠. Because I’m scared you’ll treat me like your 여동생 and then we’ll never find out if what you predicted will come true or not.

Excuse me

2010-01-26T17:40:00.007-10:00

For my absence on my blog for three days. Saturday night, I got absolutely no sleep. Maybe like 2 or 3 hours but that was it. The next day all I wanted to do was sleep, but I didn't want to have to stay awake since I was tired that night. So I fought off my sleep and ktfo'd around 10:30pm. And yesterday, I went back to school and finished my AP calculus homework and ktfo'd again. Haha.

A&F skinny jeans, Hollister tanktop, A&F hoodie, AX necklace, A&F beanie♥

So I got my a&f purchases yesterday in the mail. I am in love with hoodies, vests, and hats. So I bought this vest looking hoodie and this really cute beanie. I am in love with these two new items in my closet♥ Although I should've checked the a&f at my mall, I thought it'd be better to just get it online since it's cheaper and there's usually my size available. This reminds me! Two weeks till spring floorset at work. Can't wait to buy that white dress, shorts, and maybe I'll find a new top that I like. Gahhh, I love shopping. (I got the idea of posting my clothes from her♥)

Yesterday, I watched two movies: Julie&Julia and Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. My mom's been into renting dvds so I usually join her if it's a movie that I have interest in. So Julie&Julia was an interesting and funny movie. It definitely got me hungry. The food they made looked really delicious and it made me wonder why can't I just cook like them. Haha, I don't have much cooking skills. So I was thinking about learning how to cook from my mom this summer. But I have a feeling I probably won't do that...haha. We'll see. Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs was a really cute, funny, family kind of a movie. I suggest you watch it with your sibling or the whole family.

So how was everybody's weekend + Monday?

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You came back. Thankyuuuuu♥

End of the Week

2010-01-22T23:40:00.006-10:00

And the beginning of the weekend♥ School was pretty alright today, wasn't much of a drag. After finishing my class, I decided to go to my old high school to visit my favorite teacher. (I transferred to the high school I attend now for my junior year.) I missed her quite a bit, I used to always be in her room during recess and lunch. I was really open about a lot of things. And she was cool with me staying in her room without a visitor's pass, haha. And today, I decided to get my lazy ass to volunteering today. And there was a lot of people, so that made time fly by. They were making pillows today. And this one girl made a reversible bag, it was kind of cute.

So tonight, I had a dinner at a Korean restaurant with my family and my mother's friends. The food was delicious♥ I wouldn't mind eating Korean food everyday, honestly. It made me want to get better at my Korean. So I've decided that during the summer before I go to college and continue with KOR102, that I'd study my KOR101 stuff all over again to refresh my brain and learn and understand even more.

After the wonderful dinner, I met up with my friend to have some milk tea bubble drink at an Asian Cafe. I can never get sick of milk tea bubble drink, it's $3.66 with tax at the usual cafe that I go to. We had a really fun and interesting conversation. Which totally made my bad week, pretty decent.

I noticed that I've been into blogging more than ever now. And it's getting me to use my lovely camera a lot more. It's only the first month of 2010 and I've posted more than a third of my total postings from last year. I'm quite excited about my future blog entries. And I hope you are too♥

Well, it's late. And I have work tomorrow, so goodnight♥

Finally

2010-01-21T21:38:00.007-10:00

Obtained notebooks for myself. I was also planning on getting a planner as well. But Barnes and Nobles had this sale going on and they had none left. So I went home with these three notebooks, $10.42 with tax.

Today I had my college class. Ha, I wore my nerdy glasses to school since I barely know anyone there. So I don't have to deal with, "why are you wearing those?" like I would've if I wore them to high school. I really like them. But anyways, I'm currently taking ENG100 at a near by community college. Last semester I took KOR101, which I liked. I'm actually sad I couldn't take KOR102 this semester. My class is pretty chill right now and it's not boring but rather more interesting. It's an hour and 45 minute long class and I have it only twice a week. I'm in love with college. Can't wait till I graduate this year♥

Tomorrow is finally Friday, also pay day! This week has been a roller coaster for me, there was so many ups and downs. I'm drained, mentally and emotionally. I'm glad that after tomorrow, I don't have school for two days. But then again, my weekend is booked with hanging out, dinner, work, volunteering, and doing all my school work. Mmm, I hope I can sneak in some hours of sleep. I don't want another headache like the one I had Tuesday night.

Hang in there everyone, only one more day till relaxation♥

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Tomorrow marks 16 weeks. And I'm contemplating....

Since

2010-01-20T20:26:00.009-10:00

I couldn't blog much last night. Tonight's going to be a long one. Hopefully.

So as I said last night, I had my wonderful AP calculus test this morning. I woke up, grabbed breakfast (Eggs&Bacon!), went to my officers meeting, stepped into class. It was the shortest test I've ever took in that class, which is why we got to go over the test in class. And I got a B♥ I usually get A's or B's but this year, I've been getting B's and C's. So getting a B today made me happy.

"Reaction mechanisms are the goals for Chemical Kinetics" says my AP chemistry teacher. We're currently learning about rates of chemicals reactions and somethings we learned in calculus. And it's quite complicated but today's lecture sure helped me. But I really need to start making the habit of doing the daily set problems. I think I need to spend less time on my laptop and more time flipping through textbooks.

Today's Wednesday, meaning no college class for me. So school ended at 12pm, thus being in love with Wednesdays. After leaving school, I headed out to costco to get myself cheap lunch. Pizza with Berry Smoothie. Berry Smoothies are my favorite♥ $1.52 with tax, haha.

After eating my pizza and drinking my smoothie, I went off to work. It was a mellow day, not too busy but not too slow, totally perfect. And I found a new piece of clothing I wanted for my closet. But I might put off on getting it even though this Friday is pay day, since we'll be adding our spring clothes next month. Which is another thing I'm looking forward too♥

How was everyone's Wednesday?

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(via notebookdoodles)

I saw this post and I really wanted to send this to you in a text message, but I didn't. But one day, I will. ♥

Headache

2010-01-19T22:01:00.003-10:00

I have a headache, which isn't making things any better. I'm glad I finished my calculus homework. Gah, the test is tomorrow morning. I still have chemistry homework to do, but I guess I'll put that off. Short entry, I know. But goodnight♥

Instead

2010-01-18T17:25:00.005-10:00

So instead of getting a planner and notebook yesterday, I decided to get a shirt after work for $9. It was quite worth it. And I told myself I'd go get one today after my mother came home, but instead of that, I'm sitting on my dining table, writing this blog entry and blasting trance into my lovely ears. And today, I'm wearing my fake glasses. I like them. ♥

I just realized that I haven't said anything but the other day, January 12, 2010, I got my navel pierced. I got it right before work, which is why I was late that day, hahaha. It didn't hurt at all nor does it hurt right now. I love it. ♥

This weekend, I realized a lot of things. And I feel stupid for not seeing them before. But hey, that's life. You do certain things to help yourself realize one important thing. So nothing is ever pointless in the end. Or so it seems to be.

Looking better now

2010-01-16T23:37:00.003-10:00

The weekend's looking a lot better now. Rough start but I'm having fun. Yesterday wasn't that great. But today was fun. After work, I went over to my coworker/friend's house and cooked food together. Delicious quesadillas and mini cupcakes! Although we didn't make our cookies with berries thing, next week it's Korean food. Whoot. Excited for next weekend definitely.

This weekend, tomorrow to be exact, will be the day I buy myself a planner and a simple notebook so I can write random thoughts down and keep track of what I've done through out the days, weeks, and months and to also write things that I need to do. I've always failed to keep a planner. But this year, I'm quite determined to keep one. Also! I feel like I should carry around my lovely canon camera everywhere I go. It's such a nice camera but I barely even use it. Sounds like I found myself some new year's resolutions, haha.

Hope everyone's enjoying there three or four day weekend. ♥

Four Day Weekend

2010-01-15T12:10:00.003-10:00

Chyeahhh, four day weekend. ♥

Off to a bad start though. -____-"

Honey Toast

2010-01-13T23:46:00.001-10:00

I want to get honey toast with you again. ♥

I haven't

2010-01-11T21:13:00.003-10:00

I haven't forgotten about you. It's just after hearing from you, the Fridays just stopped bothering. It's been 14 weeks and 3 days.

I miss talking to you, randomly ranting about small things that happened during the day.

Fall in Love

2010-01-09T17:04:00.003-10:00

Fall in love もっと好きになっていいの？
君が最後の恋人なの？
信じたいよ　信じさせてよ・・・　Forever

眠れぬ夜は　君の名前
つぶやいてみる　Again
それだけでまた　切なくなって
読み返す君のmail
一秒後と逢いたくなる
(真夜中でも　飛んでくけど・・・　Do you feel the same? Baby)
わがままで怖くなる・・・
I wanna believe This feeling is real

Fall in love もっと好きになっていいの？
君が最後の恋人なの？
信じたいよ　信じさせてよ…　Forever

Fall in love もう何もいらない
かけがえない君以外
つないだ手を離さないで…　Forever

初めての気持ち　ありきたりじゃない
大事にしたいよ Baby
臆病な君の　心を全部
I promise you 守るから
運命があるのなら
("ずっと"の意味　Give me ユビキリ Do you feel the same? Baby)
それが君と感じてる
I wanna believe This feeling is real

Fall in love もっと好きになっていいの？
君が最後の恋人なの？
信じたいよ　信じさせてよ…　Forever

冬の星座も　夏の夕暮れも
ふたりでずっと　見つめていたい

Fall in love 抱きしめられると
なぜ泣きたくなるんだろう？
溢れ出して　止められない…　Forever
Fall in love もう何もいらない
かけがえない君以外
おわりなんてないと云って…　Forever

Because

2010-01-08T00:50:00.003-10:00

if everything were that easy, everything would be meaningless.

First day back to work

2010-01-06T22:20:00.003-10:00

Today I went back to work after taking three weeks off because of my trip + nails. :3 It's a constant flow now days, but apparently it's not that busy to them. I guess because they were REALLY busy right after Christmas and such. Boo, I missed out on getting a lot of hours. :[ There's a lot of things on clearance. o.o And by next month, there's going to be MORE new clothes. :D Which I'm excited about. x] Whoot! :]

Mouse

2010-01-06T00:29:00.002-10:00

There's a mouse in our house. :O

Semester 2 Term 3 Day 1

2010-01-05T19:07:00.003-10:00

The first day back to school after having a two week long winter break wasn't too bad actually. I was expecting a much longer day. I went to my first period, Spanish 2, and realized the reason why I got a B for Term 2. Apparently, my teacher couldn't find my binder. Thus, giving me an F for that portion. Which is probably why it dropped my low A to a low B. -.- After finishing class work, I found my binder in the class because I knew I turned it in. So hopefully my grade goes back up to an A. >:[ Second period, leadership, was the usual; semi-boring but semi-busy. And my last period of the day, AP Chems. I'm pretty sure I didn't miss that class, ha. x] I realized that 70% of my grade is based on my test scores which aren't great. That class is extremely hard but I'm sure I'll get better...? Hopefully this semester will be better than semester 1.

I thought of you

2010-01-04T17:36:00.003-10:00

And I couldn't help but to cry.

ひまわり

2010-01-03T15:18:00.006-10:00

青い空と雲
太陽をつかまえんぞ
君がいるから俺は笑う
悲しいお別れも
最高の出逢いも
ココに生まれた奇跡
LA LA　ありがとう

光るお日様　キラキラ波打ち際
青い海と空　いつも同じさ
背伸びはしないさ
自分らしくないから
素直に笑っていたいだけなんだ

涙が　こぼれ落ちても
うつむかないで
さぁ　手を繋いだら
また一緒に歩こうか
俺らは　笑顔の　ひまわりさ!

青い空と雲
太陽をつかまえんぞ
君がいるから俺は笑う
悲しいお別れも
最高の出逢いも
ココに生まれた奇跡
LA LA　ありがとう

やがて帰ってく
オレンジ色残して…
さよならをする時も　味方だった
月が微笑む　星がそっと寄り添う
どうかいつまでも　見守っていて

辛いことがあったなら
深呼吸してごらん
泣き虫のひまわり
またいつもの笑顔で
上向いて　胸張って　飛べるから!

青い空と雲
太陽をつかまえんぞ
君がいるから俺は笑う
悲しいお別れも
最高の出逢いも
ココに生まれた奇跡
LA LA　ありがとう

心配掛けた　あなた傷付けた
迷惑掛けた　でも歩き続けた
こぼした涙　俺バカだから
お互いの夢　それ宝だから!

メチャクチャな歌と
ハチャメチャな言葉
俺ムチャクチャだけど　今伝えたい
どんな時だって微笑んでくれてた
“あなた”は俺の宝物!

青い空と雲
太陽をつかまえんぞ
君がいるから俺は笑う
最後の別れも
最高の出逢いも
ココに生きてる奇跡
LA LA　ありがとう

もみじ彩り　雪が踊り
桜舞い散り　お日様輝き
いつも黄色い　愛のカタチ
僕のひまわり…

2010☆

2010-01-01T17:47:00.003-10:00

First post of 2010. :]

So far, it's pretty good actually. Spent the night with my niggahs till 3AM. Came home and read a message that made my new years that much more better. :D Fell asleep at 5AM, didn't wake up till 2:40PM. Hahaha, hopefully things get a lot better this year. I know it will. :D

Insomnia.

2009-12-29T06:17:00.002-10:00

Seriously. Can't sleep. It's been like this since I came back from Japan. I would go to bed and then wake up 3 hours later. -___-" Apparently my body now only requires 3 hours of sleep. Wonderful.... Not really. It sucks. /: I swear to god my health is getting more fucked up as time passes.... /: Not cool. :[

Anyways, almost new years eve! Time to get fucked up? Yes. :D Hopefully it'll be better than last year. Well, last year wasn't that bad. x] I guess. LOL. I should hop into bed again soon. Ha.

Ahhh, it's been twelve weeks and still counting.... Or, well. I'm still counting and waiting.

Even though

2009-12-27T07:43:00.006-10:00

(via PostSecret)
This made my heart sink just a bit. /:

I will be here.

2009-12-11T13:22:00.000-10:00

“When the big road falls apart

And you think that the feeling will linger
You need somewhere to start
I will be here
And when it all seems to fall apart
You can’t breathe
You don’t know what you’re thinking
You need somewhere to start
I will be here”

♥

Three down, four more to go!

2009-12-08T23:32:00.002-10:00

I took three tests today. One for AP Calc and two for AP Chems. I have my Korean speaking test this Thursday, my Korean written test next Monday, my AP Calc Final on Tuesday, and my AP Chems Ch. 13 test on Tuesday. So much studying and other things to do. Dx It's killing me. :[ So far, I got 80% for my AP Calc test, which brought me back up to a C. I need a 98 on my Final to pass with a B. x__x I hope I can do it!

I can't wait till my winter break. I'm going back to Japanland for eight days. d: Then, just relax and work till school goes back in session. d:

Remember December

2009-12-01T17:22:00.000-10:00

When life...

2009-11-30T23:38:00.001-10:00

"When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile."

This quote made me a little more stronger on the inside. ♥

目をそらさないで・・・

2009-11-29T22:11:00.000-10:00

Thanksgiving Weekend Day 2&3

2009-11-28T13:41:00.002-10:00

Holy cow, Black Friday was CRAZY at work. There were too many customers. x__x I was at the register more than half my shift and it was crazy. lol. I didn't go shopping again this year. :] Discounted clothes ftw. :D Totally enough to satisfy my need of clothes and holiday shopping lol. Surprisingly, we only stayed half an hour over. Teehee. :3

So afterwards my coworker picked me up for some yogurt, took me home, then I met up with my best friend and cruised. x] Had a semi-good talk, I really needed it. I even cried. Sigh. ><

Today I opened and just came back from work! :] And now I'm going to go work on my college essay, hahaha.

Hope Black Friday was dope for everyone. :D

난 눈을 감아, 끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔....

2009-11-27T11:43:00.001-10:00

Thanksgiving Weekend Day 1

2009-11-26T16:00:00.003-10:00

Happy Thanksgiving. :] Definitely thankful for this four day weekend which will allow me to get my college app done and study and complete my homework. I haven't blogged in a while again.

Mother came home from her business trip two days ago. :] She went to Japanland for two weeks. She brought home a lot of books and snacks. I'm pretty happy that she's home. Finally, I can eat good homemade food. :3

School is really a drag. It sucks. d: But I need to work my ass off or else my grades will be worse than last term. -___-" AP Chemistry is depressing and AP Calculus is frustrating. The combination of both is stressful. Not to say, in leadership, I'm actually doing a bunch of things so that my adviser won't bitch. -___-" For some reason, this year she's very strict. Like ridiculously strict with everything. Oh well. Whatever. Ha. Finally caught up with photography class, well kind of. All I have to do is my extra credit project, then I'm done. I hate that I'm stuck with that class. Aigoooo. -____-" Oh well. Can't do anything about it anymore!

Tomorrow is BLACK FRIDAY. Guess who's working? Me. d: 3-closing~ Sighhhhh. I'm expecting to finish an hour+ after closing because of all the clothes that needs to be placed where they belong because it was thrown around the store probably 23984392871 times. -____-" Oh well, worth the money I'll be getting out of it. :D

Recently, there's been nothing going on. Life is kind of boring as of now. And that's really lame. All I do is think about things that bother me throughout the day and night. It literally sucks ass. I don't really have a place/person/thing I can completely vent to. -___-" I'm pretty much bottling this all up inside me. Great. -___-" It's probably why I have insomnia right now. I sleep past 1AM almost everyday. -___-" It's like, if I don't have anything to do the next day I'll stay awake. One night, I came home around 12:30AM and went to bed at 4:30AM. I told myself I have to go to bed. It's weird. Unless I'm tired, I usually listen to my music and fall asleep. Bad habits piling up. Sigh. -___-"

Hopefully this weekend will be a good one.

Rain~

2009-11-16T23:23:00.002-10:00

It's been rainy/cloudy/windy. And I'm actually liking it. :] Cause it's cold. ♥ Even though my hair won't be the way I want it to be half the time, it'll be worth it. x]

I don't know if I'm allowed to say, but I do miss you sincerely.

You and I

2009-11-02T22:53:00.001-10:00

♥

Lazzzz

2009-10-25T17:25:00.002-10:00

Another unproductive weekend in terms of doing school work and studying. -.- This weekend started off super shitty. And it kept getting worse. But last night made things a lot better. Getting new clothes definitely helped too. :D Hollister is in winter mode guys. So happy. (: Oh shit, Halloween weekend. (: But fml, SAT score reports. ): I hope I did a lot better than last time. My grades for school weren't that great so good SAT score would be nice. Wahhhh, Furlough Friday weekend, why must you end?

Nine and Eleven

2009-10-20T23:01:00.000-10:00

Nine days till SAT Score Report. D:

Eleven days till Halloween. :D

Fall?

2009-10-18T12:27:00.007-10:00

So, I haven't updated in awhile. Again. x__x

It's fall guys, but the weather makes it seem like it's still the summer. -.- I want it to get windy and NOT humid. The past couple of weeks, I've been dying in the heat. a;lkdfja;lkwejonvwevano;kd -_________-

Term 2 started and it's pretty chill for now. I still get the same amount of work to do each week but mmm, classes are plain boring and long. -.- I mean I have half day but still, 4.5 hours is LONG. And I don't really enjoy it for various reasons so therefore school can suck it.

Work is a different story though. Not much dreading, it's actually fun sometimes lol. (: I have awesome coworkers and I'm excited for winter clothes to finally come in. And not to mention the new discounted outfits. :D lol. BUT I am angry about not being able to find the adorable sweater in my size on this island. ): I hope we get more of the sweaters shipped in so I can find my size! .__.

Last week I took the infamous SATs. -.- I actually prepared myself better than last time I should say. Went to sleep early, ate breakfast, got there early so I could leave early, and I feel I did a lot better than last time. (x Hopefully, my scores reflect it. >< Cause if not, I'm going to cry. T^T

It's almost Halloween guys. :D I'm quite stoked for it. (: <3

bokeh

2009-10-08T23:05:00.002-10:00

Sometimes, this is all I see. Sad how my vision is super bad. :/

Dream

2009-10-05T21:29:00.003-10:00

The last dream I had that I can remember was a weird one. It had random people or actually two, I was wearing someone's Hollister jacket (white), and it had calculus in it. o__o How random.

But apparently, mathematics indicates that I'm evaluating a situation in your waking life where I need to be more rational in my thinking and that I shouldn't act on my emotions. Wearing a jacket means that I want to present and project to the outside world. It also symbolizes my protective and defensive personality. It states that I tend to distant my feelings and as a result, I may be isolating myself. I also looked up white which means that I may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life.

How interesting. (: It kind of all makes sense, lol. I like looking up dreams and what they mean. (x

Fall Break

2009-10-04T16:09:00.002-10:00

Thank god it's fall break. I've been dead for awhile now. I'm glad I can spend a day at home, drinking pepsi infront of the laptop playing farmville. (: Although I wish I could sleep everyday there's still a lot to do. )x SAT is coming up this Saturday, so I have to cram and study. x__x Ugh. And then I have to start filling out college apps and write college essays. ): Poo. And get started on my volunteering for senior project. Omg. Fall break is still like having school. T^T Plus I have to go to Korean class since I ditched all last week. a;lkjf;aljkdf;akfjawoieaovnvew ):

Colored contacts! :D Yes, I want to get some colored contacts. :D Weird, but I only want them to wear occasionally. (x All I need to do is get them fitted or something. And then I can order them. lol. d: I hope I match the colors I want. >__<

Ohohoh! We might get a dog :D I'm so excited! (x<

"Failure is the only opportunity to begin again." Right?

):

2009-09-28T17:54:00.001-10:00

I seem to make myself unhappy.

Great.

もう二度と・・・

2009-09-27T15:11:00.000-10:00

もう一度会いたいよ　声聞きたいよ
Tell me why you had to go　その手離せないよ
あの頃のように　笑っていたいよ
I just wanna hold you close　ずっと忘れないよ

ひとりうつむいてたあの夏の日
夜の海で　ひかれあって
毎日心配してメールくれたよね
つらい日々に灯りが灯った

二人になって　笑いあって　見つめあって　重なりあって
何気ない景色がゆっくり変わってゆく
二人になって　寄りそって　抱きあって　深くKISSして
ずっとこのままって信じていたんだよ

出会って　信じて　好きになりすぎて
苦しくて　ああ　いつも泣いてた
ただ待ち続けて　さよなら言えなくて
もう二度と…　あの日々に帰れない

もう一度会いたいよ　声聞きたいよ
Tell me why you had to go　その手離せないよ
あの頃のように　笑っていたいよ
I just wanna hold you close　ずっと忘れないよ

想い出つまった　favorite song
せつなすぎて　まだ聴けなくて
あなたの隣に今誰かいるのかな?
街を歩き　涙がこぼれる

一人になって　時止まって　立ち止まって　何も見えなくて
最後の後ろ姿焼きついてはなれない
一人になって　笑えなくて　振り返って　またうつむいて
前を向かなきゃって　わかっているんだよ

出会って　信じて　好きになりすぎて
苦しくて　ああ　いつも泣いてた
ただ待ち続けて　さよなら言えなくて
もう二度と…　あの日々に帰れない

(every night so cold)　寒い部屋一人震える
(can’t let go)　戻らない時間が
(come back home)　さびしすぎるよ
もう二度と…　もう二度と…
抱きしめてくれないの?　おいていかないでよ

もう一度会いたいよ　声聞きたいよ
Tell me why you had to go　その手離せないよ
あの頃のように　笑っていたいよ
I just wanna hold you close　ずっと忘れないよ

出会って　信じて　好きになりすぎて
苦しくて　ああ　いつも泣いてた
ただ待ち続けて　さよなら言えなくて
もう二度と…　あの日々に帰れない

Honestly,

2009-09-26T23:43:00.000-10:00

I think you'll never know.

2009-09-14T22:58:00.002-10:00

I thought of you and started to miss you and it just happened to rain.
I wonder if you feel the same as I do. I wonder sometimes if you miss me.
Today of all days, your scent is spinning in my head. ...I miss you.

State of Mind

2009-09-02T22:05:00.003-10:00

I'm in the right state of mind. Best I've ever felt in the past two months.

School + Study + Work + My Important Seven + Trance + Food + Text = <333

What About Us

2009-08-31T23:17:00.001-10:00

As a matter of fact, there’s no turning back
Though I can’t deny, I still want you back
No confidence, just hide and seek
Your weapon’s blood, is security
What about promises, and what about the days I’m missing
What about, what about, what about us
What about the time of our lives
What about the things that you had
What about, what about, what about us

I’m waiting for you
I’m waiting
It’s time to let go

I’m waiting for you (what about, what about, what about us..)

As a matter of fact, there’s no turning back
Though I can’t deny, I still want you back
No confidence, just hide and seek
Your weapon’s blood, is security
What about promises, and what about the days I’m missing
What about, what about, what about us

I’m waiting for you
What about, what about, what about us

As a matter of fact, there’s no turning back
Though I can’t deny, I still want you back
No confidence, just hide and seek
Your weapon’s blood, is security
What about promises, and what about the days I’m missing
What about, what about, what about us

What about the time of our lives
What about the things that you had
What about, what about, what about us

Still Here

2009-08-30T20:26:00.001-10:00

I never knew life could be this way
Life without you
I never knew life could be this strange
Like a sky that isn't blue
I know you're still here
I know you still care
I know you follow me places only you and I would share
You know you're my love
Know that I always cared
I may have been away without you
But my heart was always here

Never forget
I never left
Always there in the shadows
Hard to believe
Because you couldn't see
Always there when I mattered

I'm still here

I never meant to fall this way
So much to sacrifice
I never thought life would pass away
And at such a high price
Feel we're still one
That love hasn't gone
I sense everything about you
Around me when I'm alone
Know that you'll always be
Deep in the heart of me
No matter where I am today
You'll always be a part of me

Never forget
I never left
Always there in the shadows
Hard to believe
Because you couldn't see
Always there when I mattered

I'm still here

Time

2009-08-20T21:59:00.002-10:00

I'm just waiting,
for time to pass us by,
so that things will calm down.

I'm just waiting,
for time to pass us by,
so that people can forget it and move on.

I'm just waiting,
for time to pass us by,
so that we can let it fall together again.

I'm waiting,
will you wait too?

"You're free. "

2009-08-09T11:00:00.002-10:00

Yesterday, I decided to throw out all the clothes I received from the guys I used to have feelings for. I gathered all the clothes into a garbage bag and left it in my trunk for the day. Unexpectedly, the idea of burning the clothes come up in my friend's idea.

Kahala Beach is where I cut all strings that were loosely attached to me. I have never seen fire so beautifully and I have never seen the moon as big and as yellow as it was. Every piece of clothing had its own story. I couldn't help but to explain some of them. It's not as easy as it sounds to just dig a hole and burn clothes, I was hesitant about it just because it wasn't something I normally do, it was a bit uncomfortable. I'm usually the type to hold on to things, even after feelings die and time flies. This was a first. But don't get me wrong, not everything is erased.

Now, I am free. The many things I have realized this past week, gave me clearer vision on what's going on in my life. It sorted what's important right now and what's the past. I hope I'm not too late for everything that's going on in my life.

Summer<3

2009-07-21T12:26:00.003-10:00

Summer is filled with surprises and unexpected things.

Good and Bad things happened.

Either way, no regrets.

It's life, let's live it up.

Round 2?

2009-06-28T12:51:00.001-10:00

Round 2, here we go.

062709.

122708062209

2009-06-25T19:15:00.000-10:00

Oh boy, how I miss you so much.

Summer 2009

2009-06-10T13:34:00.002-10:00

Summer 2009 started. It's three weeks or so since I've last written an entry. Last week was a stressful week, kind of unbelievable that I survived. I had a project, final, and graduation rehearsals. The capability of driving helped me I suppose. But really, I had too many things to do everyday that I didn't know what to work on first and what not.

My 09 friends have graduated...kind of sad that they won't be here at high school anymore. Even though I wasn't that close with 09, I'll still miss them. :< Especially two of my close 09 friends who are leaving this Rock for college. ): I'll definitely miss them but some of my friends are staying on this Rock so that saves me from missing too many people. x]]]] *Sigh* My Korean friend who moved from the East Coast left for the East Coast last night. ): What really sucks is that he might not be coming back to this Rock. ): Which means he might not be graduating with me. ): Such a bummer, really.

So far this summer I: went to the beach, got my hair wet at the pool, ate an acai bowl :3. had at least three subway sandwiches, saw the movie Drag me to Hell (SUCKED), and had a mini party where I did NOT drink.

I have a bunch of things to do, so enjoy your summer (:

So...

2009-05-16T17:49:00.002-10:00

I haven't written in like...a week. Oh well. I am LICENSED finally. xD Yaaaaaaaaay :3 And I got a car >:] Cheehee. But my parents won't let me drive anyone so I have to drive alone. Boo. ): So I can't cruise with anyone in my car. ): Oh well, at least I'm licensed >:] I'll post the pictures tomorrow if I have time! :D

So today, I drove down to Waikele with my mommy, friend, and her mommy. (: Coach had this BIG sale, so I bought a bag and keychain for around $200 :3 Pretty cheap in my opinion. :D And then we went down to Ala's and had a drink, and my friend and I walked around Ala's. I finally got a new bikini, but I could only get the top in my size so I have to drive down to Pearlridge tomorrow to buy the bottom. Boo for having to drive far ):

Ahh, I have to start my Senior Project soon.... :<

It's been a week.

2009-05-06T16:43:00.002-10:00

So I haven't been updating lately. I just feel so lethargic when it comes to writing blogs. I guess I'm tired out by the time I'm able to write a blog. Sorry. So it's been a while, actually only a week. But that's long, hahaha.

So I successfully FINISHED my thirty hours of driver's ed class. (: No more waking up early on Sunday Mornings and spending pretty much the whole day in a classroom. :D Yupp! Road test next week. >:D I'll finally be free. But I still need to get my car. >w<>:[ Stupid boys, don't know how to get their hair cut. -____-" Which reminds me that I have to go get a haircut as well. x]]]] My hair is getting longgggggg and so are my bangs.

Mmm...nothing really happened. LOL, only little things. So I'll be blogging later, when something worth writing happens. x]]]]]

♥

2009-04-30T21:29:00.002-10:00

I never thought I'd be in love like this,

When I look at you my mind goes on a trip.

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did,

Every morning I look at you and smile.

♥

Prom Prom Prom.

2009-04-25T13:56:00.003-10:00

So I had my junior prom last, it was surprisingly enjoyable, despite the fact that I had a mean headache and a crap table. My hair and makeup was done really nice, I liked it :3 My dress was really cute, which I borrowed from my friend (thanks!) And my date got me pink flowers even though my dress was blue! >w<>

Buuuuuuuuut my table. -___-" I really wish I wasn't on that table. I mean, yeah you're only sitting on your table for dinner and when the dancing begins it doesn't really matter. But the dinner time seems really fucking long when you're just there not really talking because obviously you don't fit in. My table consisted of my friends, but they're not like the friends I usually hang out with or anything except for one, but she sat across the table from me. I wish I said no when my friend asked me if I was okay being on that table, fuck.

But overall, I gotta be honest, it was somewhat fun; my date was a great date and the dancing was fun. (: Hahaha, come to think I took zero pictures on my camera. xD And after prom? I wasn't invited to any after parties so I just went home with a mean ass headache. -___-"

Boy I hear you in my dreams,

2009-04-22T20:31:00.002-10:00

I feel your whisper across the sea,

I keep you with me in my heart,

You make it easier when life gets hard.

Why 24 hours in a day?

2009-04-20T19:50:00.002-10:00

Every week it gets more and more stressful and I really wish there was more than 24 hours in a day so I can do the things I need and want to do and get some more sleep. Today I had a Jostens meeting in leadership class where we talked about class rings and graduation announcement designs. That made me realize that after prom, we'll start planning for senior year. In a couple of months, I'm gong to be a senior. Last year of high school. I've always said I wanted it to be senior year and a part of me still feels that way. But most of me wants high school to last a little bit longer, because time flies by and I don't think I'll be able to enjoy every bit of it with 3 AP classes, College Apps and SAT, Leadership, Senior Project, perhaps a job, and keeping up with my social life. Later on at lunch, I had a Senior Project meeting. I got a thick packet of paper about the Senior Project, which included all the forms and instruction and of course, due dates/timeline. -___-" Now I have another thing I need to spend time on to be able to satisfy myself because I want to graduate as honor student and what not. :P I guess it's my fault? For putting up too high of a standard? Blehh oh well.

Today in NJ it was a storm (: Hahaha, boyfriend stayed home and while I was webcamming him I saw two or three flashes of lightning through his small window. o___o It was terrifying but hilarious seeing him jump because of the big noise from the thunder. LOL (: And I heard it rained in HK side? I never saw a single rain drop today. x]]]]]

Cheehee, prom on Friday :D

A 'Not-So-Productive' Weekend.

2009-04-19T18:39:00.003-10:00

So, it's Sunday evening. (: My weekend was not so productive one, haha. How was your weekend? (:

On Saturday, I woke up early in the morning to get ready to get my TB shot cause I needed to get one to take my summer class at HCC. And it turns out that I have a TB chest clearence that's valid till I go to college. o___o I wasted my time going to the doctor's office just to get a piece of paper. -___-" How lame. But me and dad got breakfast from Zippy's so that's alright. (: In the afternoon, I went to my boyfriend's mom's best friend's place to get my nails done for prom! (: It took like two hours but I love it. :3 It doesn't look that blue in the picture but it is. (: It's just like the color of my prom dress so I'm happy. :D After I got them done, she took me home and I had to cook for my dad and myself. :P There's tons of things in our freezer, so I cooked some frozen ravioli so that the freezer wouldn't so crowded. x___x But it was really good, haha. (:

Again, this morning I woke up early to go to driver's ed class for six hours. x___x I only have two more Sunday's to go through till I finish! :D At this point, I'd be lucky to get a refund from my previous driver's ed teacher. It pisses me off and creeps me out that he only answers my phone calls and gives me another driver's ed teacher's number. -___-" He keeps telling me I'll get my refund next week. When the fuck is next week you asshole. -___-" Ughhhh. But anyways, I still have homework and studying to do. x]]]] Crap, I don't want to go to school. >w<

Another weekend.

2009-04-17T16:00:00.002-10:00

It's finally the weekend. I've been waiting for it for five long, busy days. After Monday, I seem to have a bunch of things to do and I've been lacking the amount of sleep because of it. Like last night, I did things for leadership and did my homework and studied for my exam. I went to sleep past 12 A.M. and ended up getting a D for the exam I studied for. FML, right? I need to dedicate my time more for studying, or my grades will go down. ):

This weekend I have to: do leadership things, study for ACT, do my homework, make flashcards for Spanish, start making a big word document for all my human physiology class, go to driver's ed class, get my nail done, get my TB shot, and do chores. What a busy weekend. -___-" Oh! And I should catch up on sleep. Actually, I need to. Or I'll get headaches everyday. D:

Well I'm going to start on my to do list for this week, so I shall be back soon. (:

Eyes, Acai Bowl, Award.

2009-04-15T21:25:00.004-10:00

I just came back from a long day. I'm tired but today was quite fun I guess or at least a part of it was fun. (: Today is Wednesday! So I ended school early. (: I bus'd it down to Costco to check up my eye sight and my eyes got worse. x___x Not too bad, -4.25. Yes, I'm quite blind without my lovely contacts. Haha. And then after, I went back to school to wait for my dearly friend (a.k.a whika whika WHITE) so that I could hang out with her before we had to go to the NHS Induction Ceremony.

So after my friend finished her band rehearsal, we hope in her car for some ACAI BOWL :3 I wish I took a picture of it, it was so delicious. :D After getting an acai bowl, we went to her house to enjoy the acai bowl while watching some funny youtube videos. x] It was 4:45 so we decide to get ready for the ceremony and then our friend (a.k.a ShitShine, it's an inside joke/nickname haha) calls saying he needs a ride to the ceremony. So we quickly get ready, rush to our friend's house to find that we have to give our other friend (a.k.a Stud Muffin) a ride home.

ShitShine didn't have the proper attire so Stud Muffin had to grab clothes for him and ShitShine changed in the car while WHITE drove back to school. When we got there, the ceremony already started. -___-" Full of embarassment! xD Hahaha. But it turns out that it was alright, or at least our advisor said so. Lol. x] So then after that ceremony, we had another one for Leadership. -___-" So then I spent another hour sitting down, wanting to be home. x] But I ended up winning an award for "Most Industrious" (:

So after I came home, I started blogging haha (: And now I'm just thinking about summer. I really, really want to go to the mainland to visit colleges! :<

Look up to the sky.

2009-04-14T20:35:00.004-10:00

"If you miss me, look up to the sky. Remember that I'm under the same sky as you."

Lately, I keep forgetting that I'm still in school. My brain is obviously still in break mode. -___-" It's disappointing every time I realize that I have school tomorrow. It's probably because I never get homework, which makes me forget I even go to class and what not, and because my boyfriend is in spring break. :< Ahh, save me.

Comment replies:

William - Aww, I have to take like about 4 more tests for college. D:

Rina - No I didn't take that picture. Randomly found it on Photobucket. (:

JT - Thanks! It's actually from a song. (: The song's title is my blog entry title, haha. The picture with my blog name is one of the pictures I took with my camera. Haha.

Let The Light Shine In.

2009-04-13T17:32:00.001-10:00

"You are my guide, You are my life, You take me to the place where I can shine."

I feel so lethargic.

2009-04-11T15:40:00.004-10:00

Lethargic as in not wanting to do anything, stay home and watch TV and totally forget about your chemistry homework because it's a three day weekend. xD I haven't been writing for three days. xD But I basically didn't really do much. All I did was do some planning for Senior Year for Leadership, take a compass test for running start, and buy books to study with. Yupp, I now have five Kaplan books to study with. Whoohoo. >w<

Planning for senior year is quite fun actually. You get to call places to ask for certain things for Senior Luau or Prom. (: But there's always people in class that are clueless or don't do anything besides talk or read a book, which is quite frustrating because there's other things going on. JUNIOR PROM(: is in two weeks and we need to put together rosters, chaperone reminders, centerpieces and favors, and make flyers. xD It's busy but I like that class, lol. (:

I took my compass test on Thursday with my three friends. :3 And when I got my results were confusing. x___x In my SAT score and my ACT diagnostic test, my writing was higher than reading, but for my compass test, my reading was higher than writing. x___x So I don't know what to study more of, which is confusing me right now. But I do know that I fail at English, hahaha. (: Wheeeeeee (: But I get to take Psychology 100 in the summer so that's still good (: And now that I have 5 Kaplan books to study with, I get to improve writing and reading. -___-"

How are you spending your three day weekend? (:

FAIL! D:

2009-04-07T15:34:00.000-10:00

1) SAT SCORES FAIL!

At April 6th, 2009 11P.M., I clicked the refresh button of my SAT view my score page and I see my score for the first time. O__O And I see crappy scores. -___-" It was shocking but expected at the same time, considering I only did about 3 weeks of studying or less than 21 hours of studying. And as of today, my list of things I need to do to prepare for College grew. D: How sad. ): Some of my friends did better than me, which proves to them that I'm not a genius at all. xD And really, I'm not. And I'm not being modest either.

2) DRIVER'S ED TEACHER FAIL!

So I was taking driver's ed for like 5 weeks with a private instructor that most of my friends went to. He's a really easy guy to get your certificates from so I figured, why not take it with him. BIG BIG BIG mistake. I'm so stupid. -___-" Anyways, HE DECIDES TO QUIT TEACHING after being "under investigation" for three months. Apparently he got complained by a psyco dad of one of his students and went through "investigation" for three months and counting. Which to me, sounds like bullshit now that I think about it. I guess he can't wait any longer so he quits on all of his students including me and three of my friends and other people.

Last Sunday I started a proper driver's ed course, which began with a six hour classroom course in the morning. -____-" Whoooot. It makes me mad because I can't get my license till May. And I know that's in a month but if my first teacher didn't quit and finished "investigation", then I would've had my license by next week. >:O And could've driven to prom with my date (one of the three that took driver's ed from the same teacher) or my date drive me to prom. >:[ The quitting teacher totally ruined my life.