How's your summer going?

Because mine's is pretty awesome.

I've been going out with some friends I haven't seen in a while, staying home and being lazy, and just working.

Working at my new job is definitely better than HCO in a lot of ways. Although I do miss the atmosphere there sometimes. I now have a sales goal that I'm required to meet and I've been trying to meet my sales goal. And two out of the three days, I broke $1000 but I seem to be short just by $100 or so.

Oh, I've also started on my "no soda" diet because I need to be drinking more water haha. Hope I don't break it!

Well yeah, how's your summer going? ♥

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone or something, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, & it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, & what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

Japan 2010 ☆★

My little brother

Shibuya, Tokyo, Japan

My nails☆★

Okay

So I lied again. I didn't manage to write another entry and I left for Tokyo, where I had no internet. But hey, I'm back in the HI again! So here's some pictures♥

Senior Prom♥

Honor Graduate; Magna Cum Laude♥

My new digital Camera☆★

I'll post some pictures of my trip later! Promise :]

MIA much?

Sorry guys, I've once again been MIA. To be completely honest, I use Tumblr a lot more now. But I missed you blogger.


Quick Update:
- I'm currently in Japan right now, Fukuoka to be exact. I am on a 3 week vacation from HI. And I am loving it. Although I do miss HI. I'll post some pictures later. 
- I left Hollister Co. and moved on to Armani Exchange! I haven't started yet since I got hired right before my trip, but I'm quite excited. Stepping up my game in the retail business, hehe.
- It's the summer! Meaning I successfully graduated♥ I'll definitely post some pictures later, lol. 
- I am now a MacBook Pro user♥ got one for my graduation gift♥


Well, I'm going to look through my pictures and post again, soon♥

君へ

ああ、もう馬鹿みたい。結局やっぱり君だけがりさの事をちゃんと思ってくれて、ちゃんと愛してくれたのに・・・何でりさは君に同じことをできなかっ たんだろう。愛してたんだよ。本当に。でも、何でりさは何でいつも君を傷つけてしまうんだろう。

初めて話したときからすごく仲良くて。離れ離れだったのにお互い好きになって。覚えてる？りさが、「大好きだけど遠距離できるか分からな い・・・」って言ったの覚えてる？でもね、その時諦めなかったのはやっぱり君が好きだったから。あれから、ずっと君とは寝る前に電話で話したね。毎晩欠 かさず電話したね。君と電話で話さなければ、寝れなくなったんだよ。

12月27日2008年、りさが日本から帰ってきた日、君と初めて会った時、君とやっと恋愛を始めた日。君が帰って来てたったの2週間半しか一緒に いられなかったけど。その2週間半は毎日が楽しかった、幸せだった。覚えてるよ、あの最後のキス。今思えば、切なかったね。あの夜いっぱい泣いたね、いっ ぱい笑ったね。何度思ったか、「あの夜に戻りたい・・・」って。

君と最後に一緒にいたのは今日でもう1年と4ヶ月の事。君と5000マイルも離れてて、すごく悲しかった。覚えてる？スカイプで二人とも泣きながら 馬鹿な顔して、ビデオチャットしたね。毎朝「おはよう」って携帯にメールして、授業中もメールして。毎晩欠かさず電話。ほとんど、毎日ビデオチャットし て。それでも、やっぱり一緒にいないからって何度泣いたか。でも、毎日欠かさず言ってた、「愛してるよ」がりさ達を支えてたね。

「愛してるけど、君はそばにいない」、そんな事を思ってたら他の子に惚れちゃった。どんなに悪い事をしたか、そう思って君に泣きながら電話したね。 覚えてる？あの時は本当にゴメンね。りさは馬鹿だったよ。あの子のせいで、みんなに内緒で恋愛から休憩したね。馬鹿みたい。

あれから、全部が変になったね。小さな事で言い合いして、そんな嫌な日々が続いたね。6月22日2009年、りさは君と別れる事決めた。りさから別 れたのに、すごく泣いてたね。何でって、やっぱりまだ好きだったから？だから6月27日2009年、また君と付き合い始めた。でも、またすぐにうまくいか なくって、別れたね。

あれから、君の大親友と遊び始めたね。ある夜、一緒にパーティーに行って・・・その後、「彼となら、うまくできる」そう思って、好きになり始めたら やっぱり彼ともだめ。君はその時点で、「おまえは僕の人生にはもう存在しない」ってりさに言った。それで、久しぶりにまた一人ぼっち。

君にある秋の夜に電話した。君は電話に出てくれた。あの時、君と4時間以上話したね。いっぱい泣いて、いろいろ話して。あの日からメールの返事がな くても、毎朝「おはよう」、毎晩「おやすみ」。たまには長いメールも送ったね。それから、ちょっとづつ君と話したけど。やっぱり君にはりさと話すことは無 理だった・・・

君の事はずっと思ってた。起きた瞬間、「君は今何やってるんだろう」。寝る前は、「電話したいよ・・・」。良い想いでも、悪い想いでも。全部忘れら れなかった。君の事思ったから、急に泣いたり、笑ったり。君はりさにとってこの世で一番大切な人だった。

あれから、ずっと待ってた。君からのメールか電話を。16週間たち、勇気を出してりさから電話したね。最初は電話に出なかったね。「やっぱり忘れら れたのか・・・」って思ってたら、君から電話。君はりさの番号を忘れてたね。でも、その日もずっとりさの話を聞いてくれた。その時に、りさに「もうどこに も行かない、最低でも君の友達としてずっとそばにいてあげる」って言ってくれた。

毎日欠かさず話したね。君は「好きだよ」っていつも言ってた。でも、本気で言ってるとは思わなかった。お互い、また惚れ直して、2月18日2010 年、君とまた恋愛を始めた日。毎日が幸せだった。言い合いもなかったし、ただ君が帰ってくることを楽しみにしていたね。でも、あの人にりさは出会って、間 違いを起こした。5月9日2010年、君を失うことになった。

あの日から、りさは自分じゃなくなった。寝るのもただベッドに横になるだけ。食べるのも不必要になった。学校から帰ってきたら、すぐにベッドにも ぐった。君の事を考えることしかできなかった。でも思ったんだ、自分を変えなければ何も変わらないって。だから、今は普通に生きていけるようになったの。 りさは自分のためにも、君のためにも変わりたいの。君に自分が変わったって見せたいの。そしたら、わがままかもしれないけど、できればまたりさの人生に 戻ってきてほしいの。

でも、本当にゴメンね。心のそこから、本当にゴメン。君はりさの事を誰より一番に思ってくれて、誰よりも愛してくれた。君はりさの本当の初恋だよ。 永遠に君はりさの心に残るから。だから、お願いだからりさの事を忘れないで。だって・・・りさは君の事忘れないし、忘れられないから。

最後に・・・さようなら、またね♥

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I've once again realized a lot of different things that I should have realized the first time around. And all I can say is, from the bottom of my heart I am truly sorry. I've never felt so broken and defeated and dead. But I'm sure that you feel the same too, along with anger. I can't believe that out of all the people in this world that I know, I put you through this again. All I can do is not to ask for your forgiveness, but to change. Change for myself, change for the people I've hurt including you. And I hope I can prove myself and prove you, that I can and have changed in the future.

So until then, goodbye.

In the end,

you walked away, I didn't.

pink♥

Prom is in two weeks. I got my dress, which I need to get altered. And I got my nails done this morning♥ I love them very much, got it done by Salon Cherie♥ They were really great, very clean. I'm pretty excited for prom besides the difficulty of getting everything perfect such as finding a table, which I still need to do. Ugh.

It's now time for dinner, I'm starving haha. I hope everyone's weekend is going great♥

10 Ways to Love

1. Listen without interrupting. (Proverbs 18)
2. Speak without accusing. (James 1:19)
3. Give without sparing. (Proverbs 21:26)
4. Pray without ceasing. (Colossians 1:9)
5. Answer without arguing. (Proverbs 17:1)
6. Share without pretending. (Ephesians 4:15)
7. Enjoy without complaint. (Philippians 2:14)
8. Trust without wavering. (Corinthians 13:7)
9. Forgive without punishing. (Colossians 3:13)
10. Promise without forgetting. (Proverbs 13:12)

yeah, such a tragedy

 

You stole a kiss and stole my heart
made me a fool right from the start
It wouldn’t have been so bad except
this little plan, it fell apart

If I were you
I’d dare not speak
I’d run like hell
In hopes of seein’ tomorrow

It’s such a travesty
the way you say our love should be
yeah, such a tragedy
think you can just break my heart and leave me
well you better run
Oh, man on the run
playin’ for fun
wind me up
leave me undone

You pushed my button.

So this past Wednesday, something happened that really pushed my button after feeling not that great for more than a week. After school, I had plans with my mother to go prom dress shopping. Not checking the surroundings of my car, I hop in and back out to head home. Apparently, someone had put a metal trashcan behind my car and the height was the same as the height of my trunk so I didn't see it. I ended up backing into the trashcan, putting scratches on my paint and bottom rubber part. Out of all the days that I've parked at school and after parking in that one particular stall, I get a trashcan behind my car. I can handle all the rumors, the laughs, and teases that I get from my peers. But when something happens to things that I love, people are going too far. After feeling not that great for the past week and a half, I couldn't help but to let all the emotions out to my counselor. And it felt great. And the next day I didn't feel like going to school and with my understanding parents, I just stayed home and went out with my mother. After this whole issue, I'm really dreading the remaining school days. Honestly, one more month till it's all over. I really cannot wait.

Sometimes

I wonder if it's even worth trying to be strong,
trying not to be bothered by rude comments and laughs,
trying not to care about what people may think of you,
trying not to care about feeling alone in a class full of people I know,
trying not to think about what happened with you and how it is now,
trying not to cry when you feel like crying everyday.

Tell me, is it worth it all?

Hello April

A month till my AP exams, a month and 4 days till senior prom, a month and 17 days till graduation, a month and 19 days till I'm 18, and a month and 20 days till I start my summer classes at my college.

I slacked off so much last term, it's quite embarrassing when you receive your first D on your report card and the lowest grade point average attained in your life. But hey, I'm still an honor graduate so I shook that off quite easily. To try and achieve the best grades I can get for my last term of high school, I've been going to all my classes and doing all my homework. In a month, I'll be taking my two AP exams. So all the practice exams for calculus are ridiculous and it's disappointing to get low grades on them especially since I love math. But that's okay, I know I'll get a 5 on my exam. As for chemistry, we're finally close to being finished with learning our material. Although I'm not confident with the exam for this subject, I'll do much better in college chemistry after taking this class. I really think I am a nerd because I think about school all the time, both good and bad thoughts. It's kind of weird.... But that's okay. I love being a nerd/dork ♥

I did not work all weekend this week. I'm quite happy with that and it's probably because I worked 22 hours last week. Haha, I'm amazed that I did it especially on a school week!  But last night was another fun night out with my friends. Dinner at Cheesecake Factory♥

How are you spending your weekend?♥

Last night

Of spring break and of course I'm still up finishing up my homework. This spring break was a very relaxing one and somewhat fun. But I'm definitely not looking forward to going back to school. Especially because I'll probably get busier with studying for my AP exams and such. Plus, prom and graduation and leadership. Sigh. I honestly can't wait till I'm out of high school. Well, I'd like to sleep before 12AM of Monday. So, I'll continue with my homework now.

Hope everyone enjoyed/is enjoying their break. ♥

Can I please

Just get my diploma already?

I'm really not looking forward to going to high school anymore.

I hate high school.

Cupcake Lover♥

Being a cupcake lover that I am, I absolutely LOVE this tumblr site.
Click Click Click ♥

Spring Break

Started last Friday and I'm so happy that I don't have school for a week. And I haven't updated for more than a week. I missed blogging a lot. There was just a lot of things to do for school and thank god I finished it all. And I passed my senior project, so I'll be graduating with a BOE (Board of Education) Recognition Diploma or in other words, an Honor Graduate. ♥ I'm so relieved, haha.

So for spring break, I was assigned 200 AP Calculus questions and a chapter outline for AP Chemistry along with the first set of problems for that chapter. So in a week, 210 problems and an outline. Sigh. But that's okay, I'll manage to finish it while working and hanging out with some coworkers.

How's your spring going? ♥

BBQ

Two Thursday ago, I had a BBQ at my friend's house. After work, me and my friend grabbed food from Sam's Club and drove out to our friend's house. The menu for the night was: Potato Salad, Hamburgers, Hotdogs, Cooked Shrimp, Ahi Poke, Chips with Salsa. We cooked and ate, played Wii, and had fun♥

(Mashing potatoes)

(Grill'n)

(HCo 341♥)

(The group for the night♥)

What do you guys normally have at your BBQs? ♥

Will you please

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